Happy to Enjoy 26th April 2014
It really seems amazing when you learn something and
start believing in it. But, it is mind blowing to get good results out of
something you did because you believed in what you learnt. Simply put, when I apply
my psychology knowledge in real life, the outcomes are just awesome.
Here, I would like to share with all that I had this
paper called ‘Positive Psychology’ in the last semester of MA. My final exams
are going on right now. I was surrounded by self-doubt and guilt. Guilt came
because I could not study well. Of the four papers we have this semester three
are over. I could not concentrate at all while studying. I was angry and
disappointed. All these emotions were turned inwards (towards me). The worst
part was that till yesterday I was not able to break the wall of these emotions
and free my own self. I was looking for answers everywhere but they were lying
in front of me the whole time.
I studied about Love, Attachment, and Relationships
in the paper on ‘Positive Psychology’. There were topics such as Hope,
Optimism, Wisdom, and Mindfulness. All these topics talked about accepting the
presence of negativity in life and building up on the positive aspects of life.
I wanted to study well. So, I stopped helping my
mother, stopped talking on the phone with my elder brother and aunt. I stopped
meeting and spending time with my friends. I would watch television but not
talk about what I was going through. I would keep studying as far as I could. This
routine made me suffer. The stress of exams was not which bothered me but the
restrictions I put on myself did create on emotional tension which I never
realized. I caught cold. It made my life even worse.
I gave my third paper away on 25th April
and came out of the class. My friends were discussing about the plans on the
day of our last paper on 3rd May. It was as if a lightening stuck
me. I called one of my best friends and we decided to meet yesterday, 26th
April. I also tried asking some more of my close friends to join us. One of
them said ‘Yes’ and three of us met yesterday.
According to both of them I was not me at least
initially. I knew that. We spent time chatting, arguing, sharing our thoughts
and I started feeling lighter. It was so good not to have any restrictions on
myself. The whole experience was simple and natural. I again felt connected. I talked
with my elder brother as I usually do. I even helped my mother after coming
back.
Now, I feel putting those restrictions on me was a
mistake. Even though, I know myself quite well, I have been doing this my whole
life. I am glad to realize it finally.
It is simple. I believe that my loved ones are very
important in my life. I love the fact that I have good friends and cherish
every moment spent with them. In some way, people are the source of my
enthusiasm and energy. I forgot that even though, I am appearing for exam, I am
still me. If I lose the essence of being me, I would not be able to do
anything.
When I studied for the paper of ‘Positive Psychology’,
I studied about flourishing relationships, loving, enjoying the day to day
moments of life to their fullest. When I applied all this, it actually gave me
back my smile, my enthusiasm. It also reduced my cold and headache.
Emotions give us energy. If they are not dealt with
properly they can be the biggest source of hindrance possible.
I am glad to smile today.
Love you my friends.
Thank You God for everything!!!
:)
