Happy to Enjoy 26th April 2014

Happy to Enjoy 26th April 2014 

It really seems amazing when you learn something and start believing in it. But, it is mind blowing to get good results out of something you did because you believed in what you learnt. Simply put, when I apply my psychology knowledge in real life, the outcomes are just awesome.

Here, I would like to share with all that I had this paper called ‘Positive Psychology’ in the last semester of MA. My final exams are going on right now. I was surrounded by self-doubt and guilt. Guilt came because I could not study well. Of the four papers we have this semester three are over. I could not concentrate at all while studying. I was angry and disappointed. All these emotions were turned inwards (towards me). The worst part was that till yesterday I was not able to break the wall of these emotions and free my own self. I was looking for answers everywhere but they were lying in front of me the whole time.

I studied about Love, Attachment, and Relationships in the paper on ‘Positive Psychology’. There were topics such as Hope, Optimism, Wisdom, and Mindfulness. All these topics talked about accepting the presence of negativity in life and building up on the positive aspects of life.

I wanted to study well. So, I stopped helping my mother, stopped talking on the phone with my elder brother and aunt. I stopped meeting and spending time with my friends. I would watch television but not talk about what I was going through. I would keep studying as far as I could. This routine made me suffer. The stress of exams was not which bothered me but the restrictions I put on myself did create on emotional tension which I never realized. I caught cold. It made my life even worse.

I gave my third paper away on 25^th April and came out of the class. My friends were discussing about the plans on the day of our last paper on 3^rd May. It was as if a lightening stuck me. I called one of my best friends and we decided to meet yesterday, 26^th April. I also tried asking some more of my close friends to join us. One of them said ‘Yes’ and three of us met yesterday.

According to both of them I was not me at least initially. I knew that. We spent time chatting, arguing, sharing our thoughts and I started feeling lighter. It was so good not to have any restrictions on myself. The whole experience was simple and natural. I again felt connected. I talked with my elder brother as I usually do. I even helped my mother after coming back.

Now, I feel putting those restrictions on me was a mistake. Even though, I know myself quite well, I have been doing this my whole life. I am glad to realize it finally.

It is simple. I believe that my loved ones are very important in my life. I love the fact that I have good friends and cherish every moment spent with them. In some way, people are the source of my enthusiasm and energy. I forgot that even though, I am appearing for exam, I am still me. If I lose the essence of being me, I would not be able to do anything.

When I studied for the paper of ‘Positive Psychology’, I studied about flourishing relationships, loving, enjoying the day to day moments of life to their fullest. When I applied all this, it actually gave me back my smile, my enthusiasm. It also reduced my cold and headache. 

Emotions give us energy. If they are not dealt with properly they can be the biggest source of hindrance possible.

I am glad to smile today.

Love you my friends.

Thank You God for everything!!!

:)