Lost but found again

Today, I was afraid of human beings and was saved by them.

This is today’s story.

For whatever reasons, there was a shutdown called by a certain group of people all over my state.

I had work. When I went to the office in the morning, everything seemed fine. I was relieved that at least people knew how to behave.

As the day started progressing, we heard about things happening around the state, thanks to today’s internet and mobile services. In my heart, I started realizing that my happiness in the morning was short-lived. Like they say, the cat was out of the bag and that too with a vicious grin.

The uneasiness started building in my stomach. My first selfish thought was how would I get home. My next selfish thought was how would my colleagues get home. My last thought was can anything be worth causing such unrest.

With this thoughts in my head, I went through the whole day. I contacted family and friends to understand the situation outside.

It was not until I stepped outside that I realized what the real situation was. There was quite a lot of public property damage. There was palpable tension in the area thought the shutdown had apparently taken back.

I, with one of my colleague, was trying to find a way to go home. I generally don’t mind being alone but today, I was more than glad that she was with me. I was scared. I realized that I wasn’t scared for myself as such. It was more of a general fear or maybe the fear of unknown, the unknown that lurks in the depths of human minds. Even when we got an auto and the auto driver was quite kind, I wasn’t myself. I felt hurt by the in-humanness in general. I was at loss of everything.

I didn’t want humanity to fail. I didn’t want to see the ugly mask of the human psyche. It was as if the murky waters had been meddled with and all the darkness was revealing itself shamelessly.

Then, I saw something…

Someone giving water to people. That simple act helped me come back from my own denial and pessimism.

After all, all was not lost.

Today, I found a new self of mine. A scared and timid self that I may not so proudly accept but its there in the layers of mind.

So early the new year presented my own belief to me:

This too shall pass.

Really, this too shall pass.